someone catfish me plz so i can get on Mtv and promote my mixtape
- loving you in six words (via say-cheesecake)
- John Green (via qstxyz)
(Source: , via misssinistersmile)
As I’m making music, my sound also stops working on my computer. As well as my daw not even working as usual. I realize the world is against you when you’re down and can’t protect yourself. When something ever fails in my life, all things do. So I know somewhere something left me, and i’m just going to have to hope it comes back.
All the generations of my family before my parents were hateful, murderers, insane, abusive, and sick. I realize I come from a sick generation curse that my mom came out of and had me… even after almost dying so many times. She’s been ill all her life, and now she’s coming down with cancer. She gives me the coldest shoulder, and the meanest stares. She calls me the worse things, and makes me feel unwanted. But one thing she always shared with me is that I share her emotion and feelings. I carry this burden but it turned implosive. It became art, it became soul, it became everything but hatred of the world, but of myself… I guess i’m the last person to end this rein of terror. I know i’m the one who has to break this chain of ancient ties. I’m imploding, like a dying star. Destroying all the sadness that I left by consuming myself. I really do wish the world love, but it will never be that way with me left judging it. As an end to evil, is an end to light.
and I feel like the only way to get through to anyone on earth is to not speak, but die in their own hands
maybe death is redemption